Writing, Feeling God’s Pleasure and the Unintended Sabbatical

by Merritt on August 30, 2013

Hello Dear Reader,

It’s been a long time.

And I’m finally ready to say it.

My attempted return to blogging last fall—failed. When I could no longer keep it up, I just quit. Not with any permanent intentions. It was just a break. Necessary freedom from self-imposed pressure.

I’d been trying for a long time to keep my head above water. To keep all my plates spinning.

But I was tired. Tired of the treadmill, the self-doubt, the internal questions, the silent demands of the keyboard to be brilliant every time.

Have you ever felt this way?

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The problem is, I love writing. Like really love it in a “Chariots of Fire,” Eric Liddell kind-of-way (his words, about running not writing, but I know you can make the leap): “I believe God made me for a purpose, but He also made me fast. And when I run I feel His pleasure.”

I believe God made me for a purpose. He gave me a story. (He gave you one too, by the way.) And sometimes the words just flow out of my fingers onto the keyboard.

When I write, I feel His pleasure. It’s the only thing in my life that really feels this way.

(Well, that and driving down Pacific Coast Highway on a warm summer day with the top down and the wind blowing in my hair. But I live in Colorado now. And I don’t own a convertible. So, for now, I’ll stick with writing.)

Good writing, the kind that makes you stick around to see what’s next, is hardly ever easy. It’s gut-wrenching and honest. It takes all you have and more.

Unfortunately, when I’m writing FOR the approval or attention of others, it’s rarely my best work. That’s where I was last September, so I needed to quit. Go cold turkey. Let myself simmer elsewhere for a while.

Thankfully, I’ve been writing again. Just for good measure (and a kick in the pants) I started taking Jeff Goins’ TribeWriters course (affiliate link) in March.  I also began waking up two hours earlier than normal (shout out to Andy Traub), and I’m learning, writing, fighting The Resistance, and dreaming about what to write next.

That’s why I’m here today. To let you in. To share where I’ve been, why I went away, and to let you know there’s more to come.

I can’t guarantee it’s going to look like it did before. In fact, I kinda hope it doesn’t. Change is good. We grow, we learn, we become more of what God created us to be.

So, whether you’ve been here a while or are just now stumbling upon my little space on the Web, thank you. It blesses me to have you here.

And, while we wait to see what flows out next, I’d love to hear your thoughts of any kind. Just email me: merritt(at) livesimplylove(dot)com. I promise to respond.

Blessings,

Merritt

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Elizabeth December 21, 2013 at 9:41 am

I SO understand the inner struggle! Thanks for your encouragement to begin writing again myself.

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Merritt March 5, 2014 at 4:07 pm

Writers must write. Thanks, Elizabeth, for relating to me and reminding me that I’m not alone. How’s your writing going?

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Sky November 7, 2013 at 12:24 pm

Love this, Merritt, and your voice. This piece inspires me today. It’s okay and even supposed to be that things change and take a different shape then when we first start out. It’s called Growth and God is right there in the midst, smiling when we do move with it. Congratulations and wonderful job.

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Merritt March 5, 2014 at 4:06 pm

I’m oh-so-slow to reply Sky, but thanks so much for your comment…and your grace-filled reminder!

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Just a girl October 15, 2013 at 3:51 pm

By the way, I’m from Finland, so you have readers from entirely different continent too ;)

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Merritt | LiveSimplyLove October 17, 2013 at 2:19 pm

Aw thanks! That is super encouraging. :) Glad you have you here from across the globe!

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Just a girl October 15, 2013 at 3:50 pm

Good to have you back! God bless you!

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Scott August 31, 2013 at 9:05 pm

Great read, Merritt. I am tracking with you 100%… so much of what you shared is the reason why I am afraid to start writing and blogging. I appreciate the timeliness of your words and the challenge to just start! I am glad you’re back in whatever capacity your blog looks like moving forward.

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Merritt | LiveSimplyLove September 3, 2013 at 1:24 pm

Hi Scott – Sometimes a little encouragement is all you need (well, that and a kick in the pants!). I hope you do start writing. Even when it’s hard, I’m always glad when I have written. And it feels even better to click ‘post’! :)

Thank you for your encouragement today. I needed it! And let me know when your blog is up!

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