Writing, Feeling God’s Pleasure and the Unintended Sabbatical

by Merritt on August 30, 2013

Hello Dear Reader,

It’s been a long time.

And I’m finally ready to say it.

My attempted return to blogging last fall—failed. When I could no longer keep it up, I just quit. Not with any permanent intentions. It was just a break. Necessary freedom from self-imposed pressure.

I’d been trying for a long time to keep my head above water. To keep all my plates spinning.

But I was tired. Tired of the treadmill, the self-doubt, the internal questions, the silent demands of the keyboard to be brilliant every time.

Have you ever felt this way?

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The problem is, I love writing. Like really love it in a “Chariots of Fire,” Eric Liddell kind-of-way (his words, about running not writing, but I know you can make the leap): “I believe God made me for a purpose, but He also made me fast. And when I run I feel His pleasure.”

I believe God made me for a purpose. He gave me a story. (He gave you one too, by the way.) And sometimes the words just flow out of my fingers onto the keyboard.

When I write, I feel His pleasure. It’s the only thing in my life that really feels this way.

(Well, that and driving down Pacific Coast Highway on a warm summer day with the top down and the wind blowing in my hair. But I live in Colorado now. And I don’t own a convertible. So, for now, I’ll stick with writing.)

Good writing, the kind that makes you stick around to see what’s next, is hardly ever easy. It’s gut-wrenching and honest. It takes all you have and more.

Unfortunately, when I’m writing FOR the approval or attention of others, it’s rarely my best work. That’s where I was last September, so I needed to quit. Go cold turkey. Let myself simmer elsewhere for a while.

Thankfully, I’ve been writing again. Just for good measure (and a kick in the pants) I started taking Jeff Goins’ TribeWriters course (affiliate link) in March.  I also began waking up two hours earlier than normal (shout out to Andy Traub), and I’m learning, writing, fighting The Resistance, and dreaming about what to write next.

That’s why I’m here today. To let you in. To share where I’ve been, why I went away, and to let you know there’s more to come.

I can’t guarantee it’s going to look like it did before. In fact, I kinda hope it doesn’t. Change is good. We grow, we learn, we become more of what God created us to be.

So, whether you’ve been here a while or are just now stumbling upon my little space on the Web, thank you. It blesses me to have you here.

And, while we wait to see what flows out next, I’d love to hear your thoughts of any kind. Just email me: merritt(at) livesimplylove(dot)com. I promise to respond.

Blessings,

Merritt

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